I stand facing a windy road that is massaging obscured hills hiding the first light of a new day. The dew is my hydration and the wind is my breath. And with childlike innocence I put one foot in front of the other, and smile.
Just over a month ago I was a defeated man. I had just gotten home from the hospital after receiving news that my little knee injury was actually a major knee injury, and that it would most likely require surgery.
Oddly, the reason behind my defeat was not so much in the injury, the surgery, or even in being uninsured. My defeat was in realizing that not only was the invincibility of my youth gone, but it had been gone for so long that when I looked to lean on it I couldn't even remember what it looked like. The abuse I suffered myself through a gluttonous and sedentary life had caused my prime years to scurry away before they even got here.
So I prayed. I prayed that God would use this opportunity to open my eyes to the importance of preserving my body through healthy living. I prayed that God would embrace me warmly and shove me out the door abruptly. I prayed for healing. I prayed for understanding.
My next trip to the doctor gave me more good news. Not only am I missing an ACL, but my blood pressure is just below hypertension. So not only did my lifestyle choices help cause a serious injury and make the healing process complicated, but now I find out that I've been killing myself. My head and my heart started arguing at this point. It was as if my head knew what my heart didn't want to hear. The mantra for the rest of the doctors visit (all 6 more hours of it) became "You're killing yourself. You're killing yourself." It wasn't until I got news that physical therapy was going to be the recommended treatment and that I have a green light to be active that my heart finally leaped in excitement at the prospect of survival.
God smiled warmly upon me, then kicked me out of the storm into a beautiful horizon. It is what is beyond the horizon that this blog will be about...
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